grey's anatomy

so my roommmates and i recently became addicted to grey's anatomy. J. has the first season on DVD and we just finished it. i love it! so i'm bored at work and found a bunch of quotes that i love from it. so enjoy!

We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop? -meredith

Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me. -meredith

Everytime I look at you... I feel better. It shocks me. It knocks my wind out, but it's true. I don't have to have sex with you, I'd be happy just look at you from across the room. Even that, anything, any piece of you. And, hopefully, all of you... that'd be the best thing. Because I love you... -george

You were like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me. That's all I know. -dr. shepherd

For a kiss to be really good... you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep that you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss, Nicole. And trust me, you don't want to... Because when you find the right person, that first kiss? It's everything. -alex

It's not childish to hold on to hope. It's actually hard, very, very, hard. -izzie

Us, with the boobs? We make a lot of bad decisions. -meredith

My world is a better place with you in it. -dr. webber

And sometimes, against all odds, against all logic, we still hope... -meredith

You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Somebody who doesn't complicate your life. Somebody who wont hurt you. He's the better guy. -dr. shepherd

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying. -meredith

Here's the good part, so you listen close, what I choose, is you. You're who I want to wake up with and go to bed with and do everything in between with. I get a choice now. I get to choose. I choose you. -denny

so there you go! i know some of them are a little bit long, but they're really good. read them! :) peace...

good ol' sanpete county

okay i'm sitting at work, being pretty bored, so i start chatting with the anesthesiologist because he's bored too. we start talking and it turns out that he lives in Manti, Utah, which is only 30 minutes from my home town of Fairview. i was quite shocked because usually people don't even know where Sanpete County is...let alone live there! we then commenced in a 45 minute conversation on the joys of Sanpete County. from the poor grammar, to the trap that it can become when you become entangled there. from "having the right last name", to the small town rivalry between North Sanpete High and Manti High. it was so enjoyable to just be able to sit down and laugh about something/somewhere that i never get to talk about. it was so great. and as much as we made fun of Sanpete County and its redneck nature, i realized that i really do love it! it may be small and partially uneducated, it may have poor English classes and no school newspaper, but it really is home. and i truly do miss it living up here in the city. don't get me wrong, i love it up here and i know i'm in the right place right now, but there's just something about small towns and knowing everyone and being able to ride your bike or walk right down the middle of the street that is just so appealing. i don't know if i'll ever go back there to live when i'm older (it is a possibility though) but i'll always have a special little place in my heart for the quirky, hick folks of Fairview, Utah.

the dark knight

so T. and i went and saw the new batman movie The Dark Knight last night. we had to go to the 11:15 showing because everything else was sold out. i was a bit tired because i had worked a 8 hour shift and a 12 hour shift with only 8 hours in between over the past 2 days but i was determined to see what all the fuss was about with this film. it was...interesting. there was just so much going on and so much important dialogue that i seemed to miss that i think i'd have to see it at least 2 more times to actually follow the plot all the way through. but all in all i really did like it. there were a few parts that were a bit gory and all-together creepy, but it was good. Heath Ledger's performance was undeniably good, though a little bit morbid seeing as he passed away after finishing the film. and just like almost every girl between the age of 13 and 45, i developed a slight crush on Christian Bale. and turned to T. and told him this before the movie started and he said "is it too weird to say that i have a little bit of a crush on Christian Bale too?" ha ha, so funny! but i've decided that since i went to see this movie with him, i'm dragging him to see Mamma Mia with me. ;)

bored...

i'm not feeling particularly inspired today but i'm bored at work and feel like i need to write something, seeing as there's nothing else to do. ha ha.
first off, i hate construction! my unit (labor and delivery) is under construction right now and i'm going absolutely nuts! oh my... there's so much grinding, banging, pounding, it could drive even the most sane crazy. i cannot wait until the remodel is done so it will be more quiet around here. also, the construction on I-80 seems to last forever! there are all these weird road closures so i end up having to detour for ten minutes just to get the 4 blocks to my house! and i have to drive all the way down 21st s to get to the freeway rather than just take the on ramp that is 2 minutes from my house but is closed due to construction. anyway, enough ranting about things i can't control.
so i work in labor and delivery and lately i've been noticing this connection that is present between new mothers. there is just this bond between women who have just recently become moms. its quite amazing to watch. the process of having a child is really very life-changing. not just in the obvious ways, like having a kid to take care of, but their "maternal instinct" just kicks in automatically. it changes you as a person, not just your title. i'm really excited to see what kind of mom i will be. i hope i'm up to the task when the time comes.
um...i think thats all i have to say for now, sorry it isn't much and it isn't exciting. maybe i'll write more later seeing as i still have over 4 hours left at work. peace...

lyrics of the day...new favorite song!

so i just purchased Katy Perry's new cd because me and my roommates absolutely love to dance around to her song I Kissed a Girl in our living room. (don't worry, none of us are harboring lesbian tendencies, we just like the song. ha ha) i thought, if we love that one song so much, i've got to find out what the rest of her music is like. the album is fantastic and has been in my cd player for days. the last song is called I Think I'm Ready and i love it! here are the lyrics:

I’m used to opening my own doors and splitting the checks
He introduced me, was always just a friend
I bought a new dress, he never noticed
Always falling for these bad boys, such a challenge
I’m getting tired, of cleaning up after them
I think I’m ready to be a woman

Oh love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it

You were such a surprise
An unexpected gift
Said I was pretty, and I believed it
Not really used to all this attention
Told myself I don’t deserve you
And this is just a phase
Could I get used to, being loved the right way?
I wanna argue, but there is nothing to say

Oh love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I’m ready

Cuz you send me flowers, when there’s no occasion
Yeah we talk for hours, you still wanna listen
Won’t hold it against me if I just need you to hold me tonight
My mother always told me that you’d show up one day
So scared to feel this way but love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I’m ready


i hope you like it as much as i do. for sure go listen to it on youtube.com or something. great song. definitely my theme song right now! peace...

deep breaths...

sorry about that last post. it was written in a moment of frustration and was a little bit out of control. ha ha. things are going well and i'm really working, in this most recent "fling" or whatever, to really just not have so much anxiety about the entire situtation. it actually is really going well. i haven't even been too stressed about it, except for once (hence the last post) and i think its helping a lot. things are working out lately a lot better and i'm feeling less anxious in general. its realy quite nice. i've never experienced this feeling of calm and just generally being okay with the whole situation before. usually i'm going through bouts of insomnia, upset stomachs, anxiety attacks and the like. this time i'm just totally going with the flow and its a whole lot better. we'll see how long it lasts. peace...

what the-?

here's a little hint to all those of the male species who are single: don't mess with girls' hearts. its not nice. if you don't like me or are not interested in that way, fine! i really can handle the truth. i'm a tough girl. but do not...DO NOT just hang out with me for a week, kiss me, canoodle with me, tell me that i'm beautiful, and then never call me for a week or so. not cool. i would really appreciate if you would spare me the anxiety, even if you have to give me a quick shot to the heart and get it over with. i'd rather have that then a week of anxiety-ridden days and frustrated nights and then a few weeks of nursing my confidence to its previous, still-sad state. so please spare me, just tell me from the get go that its just not meant to be. don't get my hopes up, make me see how wonderful you are for me, and then disappear. i just think thats a little bit rude and inconsiderate. but maybe thats just me... peace...